whats the deal???
seriously... this has got to be one of my biggest current rants.
how hard is it for a guy to say he loves you or just to do something every once in awhile to make you feel... i don't know, special... appreciated... something.
when the majority of the love and affection you get is within the afterglow of sex...
what what what am i supposed to think?
this is why i tried not to date anyone for ... like almost a year. i got out of a serious relationship and i decided i was sick of the games. being single was great.
then i fell for him. and i fell hard.
it's like suddenly i was a complete retard, i told this guy i loved him after 2 months... and then it took him a MONTH to say it back.
he still doesn't say it very often. oh, unless he's drunk. or of course after sex.
plus his parents hate me
i hate not knowing where i stand.
he's either the sweetest guy in the world or completely distant. no in-betweens here.
i love him and i hate being in this limbo.
at the very least i guess i should enjoy myself while its here, hope for the best... after all the sex is just bombastic and i might as well enjoy that in the meantime.
hell if i know...
Current Mood:
bitchyCurrent Music: that christina aguilera & lil kim song about ho's